@elight @pathfinder @actuallyautistic I'm not officially diagnosed, but on realizing I'm #ActuallyAutistic in my adult years, it's like now all the truths of what I really face are more prominent, I can actually recognize sensory overload but can't always find my way to fixing it, etc. The masks we put up tend, I think, to mask the truth even from ourselves, then when the truth comes clear, it's another overwhelm all in itself sometimes, because we don't have the buffer we once had.
@Tarrenvane @elight @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
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I’ve spent my entire life fixated on them and their problems, the “normal,” people, so much so that I managed to forget my own problems, and my own quite disabled childhood and this kept me masked from myself forever.
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I was THIS old when I figured this out. 💜
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@punishmenthurts @elight @pathfinder @actuallyautistic I was kinda pressured into being like them. Because I was a blind kid, heaven forbid I should be anything different.
@Tarrenvane 😯😳Fitting in, while sighted, is hard enough. Did you have support at home? @punishmenthurts @elight @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
@Tooden @punishmenthurts @elight @pathfinder @actuallyautistic Only for my needs as a blind person. No one ever thought that maybe the things they were calling "blindisms" and constantly saying "You don't want people to think you're autistic?" about might *actually* be *gasp* autism. I was supposed to just be normal.